God really has a way of helping me lessen the sadness after the death of a loved one. In 2010 after the sudden death of my only sibling, He blessed us with an adorable nephew (my cousin’s son whom I’m fond of even until now) the month after. Less than half a year after my nephew’s birth, I started a relationship with a guy who eventually became my husband. Having them in my life made me feel less sad for I have other things to focus my thoughts and energy on.
Just this year, my beloved mother lost her battle against cancer and like any other mama’s girl who considers her mom as her bestfriend, it affected me so much that I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night crying. Despite the presence of my family who has always been there since day one, the void she left in my heart is so big I am sure nothing can ever fill it in. But then again, God intervened. Three months after her death, we found out that I am carrying my husband and mine’s one-month old little bundle of joy. Yes, our little one is growing inside my womb and getting complete and stronger each day. I have surpassed the first trimester without so much drama and I pray that this pregnancy will be uneventful until I give birth second quarter next year.
So you see, God is so great! He knows what and when to give. He knows the desires of our hearts and what we really need to get through the day. We just have to trust Him and let Him lead us to where He want us to be. Our hearts, mine especially, are overflowing with joy and gratitude for the blessing and opportunity to carry a human being into this world, although it (the world) can be harsh sometimes.
Naturally, this blog will be more varied for you will soon see posts about a new topic - motherhood. However, I’m kinda doubtful if I can post regularly like before because I’m pretty sure I will be very busy in the coming months especially when the little one comes. But then as usual, I will never stop trying to come up with something worthy to share, albeit scarce. :D
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